THANKS FOR BEING SO CRUEL, YOU DID ME A FAVOR

I was following the site of what I thought was an intelligent conversation about Bipolar Disorder and the many issues surrounding it.  The host of the site is against medication. Many of the readers and those who leave comments are against medications and are looking for other ways to deal with this beast called Bipolar.  I am personally opposed to medications myself  and what the doctor’s are doing with their drugs to so many people.  This is what the site is mainly about and getting off of meds.  I left what I thought was an honest statement about how people do so much complaining about doctors and their “drugs”, but how people don’t want to listen to the doctor when they are told over and over that diet and exercise are so important to a Bipolar’s mental health.  There is a lot of ”doctor complaining” on the site.   The host of the site thought that I was personally attacking them, which I totally don’t understand because I was just giving my opinion just like anyone else does on the site and did not use the hosts name.  I have something to say, I am direct, to the point and to the face.  I know from reading the blog that the host takes very good care of their body and puts a lot of thought about what goes into it.   Unfortunately the host doesn’t care much about what comes out of thier mouth and doesn’t mind tearing down someone who also suffers from Bipolar.  The site is supposed to help people, or so it claims.   The host called me a @!%&ing genius and totally when off on my comment, and yet agrees with my point!  Since I suffer from Bipolar I thought that my opinion on the subject was valid. For someone who CLAIMS to help others, the response and name calling was totally inappropriate and down right mean.  So I will thank the Lord for showing me exactly who the host of the site is.  I think this happened so that I will never visit this site again.  I hope that ripping me a new one in their comment section makes them feel so much better.  Thank you again Jesus for showing me the way!  It’s your way, Jesus!  And by the way, Jesus, could you heal their angry heart?  I know how frustrated they could be,  I go through a lot of confusion with this too, in Jesus name, Amen.

ADDENDUM:  The host of the site says they missunderstood me and wants peace.  Missunderstanding is easy to do in this forum and I will continue to pray for the individual as I have been and still am in their shoes, suffering.   Peace out.

THROUGH THE FIRE

If you have been reading my blog, checking my Face Book, or know me personally, then you know that I have been struggling for the past 4 to 5 months.  I call it “My Walk Through The Fire”.  I am grateful for all that the fire has shown me about myself, even though it burns and hurts and the refinery process is not done.  I believe that through the hard times is when I get a good look at who I am.  I got to see my character flaws, ie:  rebellious nature, selfishness, stubborn, ego issues, and other things.  I have been through the fire before, but this time I didn’t burn every bridge and I actually LEARNED a lot about myself and those around me.  Usually I would cut and run.  The thought had crossed my mind, but I knew that would be the easy way out.   Truth will set me free and free indeed I am.  I wouldn’t exactly say that I “suffered well”, but I have changed and have learned to appreciate the refining process that God brings on.  I think he will do that to anyone who needs to learn to be humble and graceful.  After all, I did ask him to make me humble and give me grace.  I am more aware of God’s love for me now more than ever.  Thank you for loving me, Lord.

I CAN ONLY IMAGINE

I can only imagine what it is like to have a friend that has Bipolar.  It has to be one of the most challenging relationships that one could ever experience.  I mean it’s not like my arm is broken and we can put a cast on it, give me some pain killers and everything heals up.  I personally would rather have every single bone in my body broken than to have something wrong with my mind.  It’s easier for others to deal with illness when they can actually see it.  Bipolar isn’t something you can see, only experience.  Can you imagine what it would be like if your brain was malfunctioning on you?  Your brain is about the most important organ functioning inside your body.  Can you imagine what it is like to have every person in your life questioning your ability to reason?  That in it’s self is cruel torture.  How about your personality changing from possibly hour to hour?  One hour everything is great and the next hour you’re acting like the spawn of Satan.  On top of that, I get to deal with all of the mess and destruction that it leaves in it’s wake.  So to any of you that actually have it in you to see me through a difficult time, I say Thank you, you are the cream of the crop and can probably handle most anything!  If you can’t deal with me and want to run the other way, I understand, I want to run with you!

PRAY FOR ME? PRAY FOR YOU?

I used to think that it was selfish to pray for myself and that I should only be praying for others.  This kind of thinking is wrong.  I think maybe a lot of other Christians think the same and do not pray for themselves.  Some probably wonder what to pray for when it comes to them selves.  Here is a prayer for those of you who would like to know where to start.

I pray that the God of my Lord Jesus Christ, the Father of glory, may give to me a spirit of wisdom and of revelation in the knowledge of him.  I pray that the eyes of my heart may be enlightened, so that I will know what is the hope of His calling, what are the riches of the glory of His inheritance in the saints, and what is the surpassing greatness of your power toward us who believe.  In Jesus name Amen. 

BE HEARD

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The ‘Everything Human Video’ Cast & Lighting Crew:

Jesus:  Timothy Claypole
Girl:  Hannah Craton
Boyfriend:  Tim McLane
Greed:  Nicole Maney
Drunkeness:  Karen Martin
Vanity:  Ashley Duke
Death:  Jodi McLane
Lighting:  Ally Rogers
Video & Editing:  John David Delgado

THANK YOU JESUS

GOD BRINGS ON THE MOMENT

God brought me to it and he will get me through it.  Some days are just more real than others due to content.  One day you’re on your way and then SLAM!!  Happens to everyone at some point.  I can look up beyond the rubble, debris, and misery of a smashing moment and see The Golden Opportunity standing right in front of me.  I need prayer for great strength, please.

WHERE DO I DRAW THE LINE?

 I was wondering how much time and energy do I spend on someone who doesn’t listen, is willfully disobedient and has not made a commitment to Christ after a few years of knowing, being told the truth and shown the way.  As a result of willfull disobedience their life is one crisis after another.   I looked for what Jesus said.  When I look at these scriptures, it seems as though no time is waisted at all on those who do not listen and it is on to the next lost person who may hear the good news and want what Jesus has to offer.  I have always had issues with boundaries.

Matthew 10-14  “Whoever does not receive you, nor heed your words, as you go out of that house or that city, shake the dust off your feet. 15   “Truly I say to you, It will be more tolerable for the land of Sodom and Gomorrah in the day of judgement for that city.

Mark 6-11  “Any place that does not receive you or listen to you, as you go out from there, shake the dust off the soles of your feet for a testimony against them.”

Luke 9-5  “And as for those who do not receive you, as you go out from that city, shake the dust off you feet as a testimony against them”

LESSONS FOR MARCH

*  Those “tiny, not so bad, little” sins that I allow into my life can grow into bigger sins that have consequences that I can’t anticipate.  Very sheepish of me (meaning dumb).

*  It is not my responsibility if someone leaves the flock.

*  It is my responsibility to make an effort to call or send a nice note  just to say “We missed seeing you today” and leave the rest to God, period, end of story.

*  The right medication can be the difference between reality and insanity.

*  Not having good, solid boundaries causes a great deal of stress in my life and I had better get busy forming those boundaries so I can do God’s business without being tired, wore out, frustrated, confused, beat up and consumed by others iniquity’s.

*  I love the Lord more than ever as I understand that the gifts he has bestowed on me were custom designed by the Him for me.  Other’s that have similar gifts have wanted me to conform to be more in line with theirs, but I choose God’s unique plan for my gifts and am excited to see what He does with them.

*  I was thrown into some kind of wild, crazy, terrible, hard time with my church family and because we all “held on”  I love them even more and my commitment to them was strenghtened by leaps and bounds through that  fire.  God is amazing because I didn’t think we would all come out of the situation with a deeper love for one another.  It’s  just another reminder to praise God through those hard trials.